11:3: “Ana Morphosis”, by David Glen Larson

11:3: “Ana Morphosis”, by David Glen Larson
Looking, glass distorted,    Looking, glass distorted,
I studied the funhouse    Ana studied the funhouse
figure standing before me;    figure standing before her;
      
the lumpy, dimpled flesh    the hollow, sunken flesh
aping me in the window    aping her in the window
was not my own reflection,    was not her own reflection,
      
but a vandal’s living within,    but a vandal’s living within,
subsuming, consuming,    rattling in her empty cage,
gorging itself in my skin.    hiding itself in her skin.
      
To kill this glutting beast    To kill the loathsome host
I must starve it and carve it    it’ll starve her and carve its
off my bones like meat.    famished face on her bones.
      
Only then can I rest,    Then they can rest in peace,
free from the feeder, post    free of each other’s hunger,
morphosis, a palimpsest.    their morphosis complete.

 


 

David Glen Larson worked briefly as a delivery monkey for a television production company, even more briefly as a Los Angeles County Emergency Medical Technician, and spent more than a decade writing films and television. He lives in Los Angeles with his wife and dog, and spends his time writing prose and poetry pieces featured in or forthcoming from places like Daily Science Fiction, Star*Line, Niteblade, Pseudopod, and Flash Fiction Online. Find out more at davidglenlarson.com. He says:

Born and raised in Hollywood, an extremely image-conscious town, I’ve had many friends who thought they had to measure up to an impossible standard of beauty, and so began to see themselves not as they were, but as they weren’t. What they see in the mirror is not what you or I may see, but a distorted, grotesque version of themselves. This body dysmorphia often leads to extreme eating disorders, and can even lead to death. As I began to think about dysmorphia, the word reminded me of something from the world of art. An anamorphosis is a distorted projection or perspective that requires the audience to view the work from a specific angle or vantage point in order to see it “correctly.” Often mirrors or other reflective surfaces are employed in this type of art. It seemed an apt metaphor. Here we see Ana from two distinct vantage points, though it isn’t clear which is the “correct” one.
 

Illustration is from the mural “Anorexia y Tabaquismo” by Jorge Figueroa Acosta, photographed by Fernwer and provided by Creative Commons Attribution-Share Alike 3.0 Unported License.



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