10:2: “Beansidhe”, by Shannon Connor Winward

10:2: “Beansidhe”, by Shannon Connor Winward
  They say I lure men to their deaths here.
  The enchanted wake to find that flesh is bone
  my lips, my tongue the gentle lap
  of lilies taking root in the throat
  as they drown.

But they are lies, Love.
Do not believe them.
I will kiss no other
not even in jest.

What tales they invent,
these errant men
that a dangerous thing
is a woman alone.

This place used to hold me prisoner
I could not bring myself to leave
when only I knew what was buried here.
The world moved on. Young girls go missing
all the time.

My rosy flesh grew rigid
and minnows ate my heart.
I hated you,
but time has a way of loosening regret
like cloth and skin, slowly released
this cool mud is soothing to the bones.

They say I haunt these shores
they hear my nightly keening
they say I search for you
but we both know this isn’t true.
I wait.

I watch the owls sweep like phantoms.
I listen to the night breathing
the aquatic chorus
and out there, I hear you pacing
searching
for me.

I had so much to say
when you took away your hands
but it broke like bubbles on the surface
it was lost in your tears.
I know you were sorry
as soon as it was done.

Your penance turns these marshes cold
your winds reach like fingers to my shore,
they grip, but close on nothing,
for you died blind.
I wish that I could take your hand
and give you peace

but sometimes the dead struggle
heaven is too bright,
they cling to the bottom, hide their faces in the silt
I keep trying to tell you
it’s all right, love, come back
but they won’t listen
and they won’t hear.


Shannon Connor Winward is a Delaware writer of speculative poetry and fiction. Her work has appeared or is forthcoming in such venues as: Pedestal Magazine, Flash Fiction Online, This Modern Writer [Pank Magazine], Vestal Review, Witches & Pagans Magazine, Basement Stories, Illumen, The Magazine of Speculative Poetry, and Dreamstreets, and the upcoming anthologies Jack-O’-Spec: Tales of Halloween and Fantasy (Raven Electrik Ink) and Twisted Fairy Tales Volume Two (Wicked East Press). Her current projects include haunting the open mic, converting young readers to magical realism, and pimping her first novel. To read her accounts of writing, mommyhood, and general sassiness, stop by her blog at http://ladytairngire.livejournal.com/.



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